I can hardly believe that we will be a family of 4 in less than a month! I’ve felt so overwhelmed these past couple of weeks; I feel overwhelmed with joy, excitement, gratitude, nerves, and love for this new phase of life our family is entering.
What am I excited about?: There are too many things to list! I think the most immediate thing that I’m excited about is to have another baby in our family. Newborns bring such a sweet spirit with them into a home and I’m excited for our family to be surrounded by that. The thing I’m most excited for in the long run is to see my 2 boys bond & grow up together. I hope they have a relationship similar to the ones Kurt has with his brothers.
What am I nervous about?: I’m nervous to be a mom of 2 and the adjustment than comes with it. I hope Chad, Kurt, and I can be flexible and work well together when it comes to taking care of each other and our new baby. I’m nervous about how Chad will adjust to having a younger sibling. He has such a tender heart and loves babies so I’m keeping my fingers crossed that he will continue to be that way.
I’m nervous about labor & delivery. I know I’ve been through it once before, but my experience was a little scary so I’m hoping this time everything goes smoothly.
Was this pregnancy different compared to my last one? YES! Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. Physically speaking, I started showing sooner, symptoms kicked in before I even took a pregnancy test, and I’m carrying much lower. Mentally & emotionally, it’s just different planning for your second compared to your first. I’m not as worried about all the details because we have a lot of baby stuff already and after having my first, I realized that a lot of the little details weren’t as important as I thought they would be. I’ve also had less time to think about this pregnancy in general because I’m really focused on taking care of Chad, our home, etc.
There are a bunch of random things that have been different too. We told people a lot sooner this time around than we did with Chad. Honestly, I probably won’t do that again. Not that I regret telling people I was pregnant, but we ended up telling family & friends a lot sooner than I anticipated and before I could really even process the fact that I was pregnant. With my pregnancy with Chad, we waited until I was almost 30 weeks before announcing that he was a boy, so I think it was just really different than the first time around. Also, clothes fit differently since I’m carrying differently, I haven’t had to see any specialists or be monitored like I had to be with Chad (yay!) and I’ve gone more “with the flow” of things this time around since I know a little bit of what to expect.
What has been the hardest part about this pregnancy? Physically speaking, the aches and pains have been much worse this time around. My recovery with Chad didn’t go as I had hoped and it’s made this pregnancy harder. Mentally & emotionally, I’d say that, in general, I’m not very good at letting things roll off my back and so the things that people have said to me regarding my weight & “looking huge”, having a second boy, not having a girl, etc. have been difficult to deal with. I think the worst part is hearing what people say and just thinking in my head, “You were pregnant once too…do you really think that comment makes me feel good?” or “How in the world am I supposed to interpret ‘Wow you’re huge’ as a compliment?” Kurt is much better at ignoring those comments and has been great at lifting me up and keeping me positive in those difficult moments. But it can definitely be hard. Note: always tell pregnant women that they look great. It makes them feel good & women who are going tiny humans need to feel good!
On another note, no one told me how hard it would be to come up with a name!!! Seriously, I don’t know how my mom did it 3 times in less than 3 years when it came to girl names. We have had a girl name picked out since before we found out Chad was a boy. But boy names are just so hard, and then we have to come up with another one after having our first.
Where did the nickname Baby Bear come from?: For a while, closer to the beginning of my pregnancy, Chad was obsessed with bears. He loved any movie, video, picture, book, stuffed animal, etc. that was or had to do with a bear. We called Chad, “Little Peanut” while I was pregnant with him because I detest nicknames like blob, bean, it, etc. and wanted something a little more…endearing haha. Then Chad started calling the baby, “Baby Bear”. It seemed gender neutral enough (we didn’t know we were having a boy yet) and Chad loved snuggling, kissing, and giving hugs to his Baby Bear. So the nickname stuck and he’s been Baby Bear ever since.
Do you have a name picked out?: YES! It’s still a secret, though! Names are super important and special to Kurt & me. It was easier for Kurt to decide and cast his vote for his favorite name than it was for me. I really need to go through having the baby and seeing him for the first time to really be sure, which is the main reason why I don’t share final name choices.
Do I have a birth plan?: My plan is to have a baby! I don’t really get caught up in birth plans and whatnot because literally anything can happen and I feel like setting expectations that may not be in my control won’t do me any good. I believe in birth preferences, not birth plans. The “plan”/preference is to follow my doctor’s advice, have an epidural, deliver at the hospital we prefer, and become a family of 4 this August. Another reason why a birth plan isn’t my thing this time around is because we really have no idea when he is going to come. I’m measuring 2 weeks ahead of schedule because of how big this baby is, which can have quite a few outcomes ranging from delivering him after a spontaneous labor at 38 weeks because he’s measuring 40 weeks and he’s ready to come to delivering him at 40 weeks and he’s much bigger than we anticipated and I need to deliver him via c-section. It’s all up in the air and that’s why I’m going to the doctor every week during the last month of my pregnancy 🙂 Modern medicine is seriously incredible. I’m so grateful for it!
What is Kurt most excited about?: “Chad having a buddy…and having less surprises since we’ve done this before.”
What is Kurt most nervous about?: “I’m not nervous about anything.”
We are so happy that we will be a family of 4 soon. When you get married, you wonder how you ever lived life without your spouse. When you have your first baby, you wonder how you ever lived without him or her and can hardly remember what life was like without that sweet baby. We get to experience that again! I am so grateful for the time & memories that Kurt and I share with our sweet Chad. He has been such a light and brings so much happiness into our home. He’s incredible, and we can’t wait to see him grow & flourish as an older brother. It kind of makes me sad that our time with just Chad is coming to an end, but we are overwhelmed with the joy of growing our family, raising another boy, and raising our little guys to be good people in this world. Seriously, Kurt and Chad are my best friends. I get emotional just thinking about all that they have done and everything they have helped me get through in life. They are my everything and I love them so deeply. I really look forward to adding another person to love in our family. We’re ready for you, Baby Bear!